Bad Blogger, Part II

I know. You've heard the insane rambling about me being a bad blogger. Of how I'll do better. I promised. I have not kept that promise. I know, I know... Bad Semi-Insane Blogger! The craziness that is my life just weeds out some things. Not that I don't enjoy being able to update you on the happenings in my life, or that TWILIGHT THURSDAY isn't super important, I just have been busy.

I spend a lot of my time grading papers, dealing with craziness and crap, trying to give my girls all the attention they need ( & more because I fight the working mom guilt), and trying to not let my marriage be put on the back-burner. It all is a job for one strong and well organized woman. Most days, I don't feel strong or well-organized. I feel sorely inadequate. I feel like the chaos is creeping in and may take over. I feel fear and anxiety. I feel like I'm not enough.

After we moved to Texas, almost ten years ago, I had some severe anxiety issues. Like stay in the house, I don't want to face the world, panic attacks in Walmart issues! I saw a doctor who I think immediately thought I was insane and wanted the meds to start flowing. I refused. Sometimes I feel those "the world is closing in" feelings every now and then. About two weeks ago, with craziness at school, those feelings almost took over. There was little sleep and lots of worry. Then my supreme fear that I truly may go insane started to kick in. It was a horrible week or so. While I am better now, and things are ok at school, it still threw me off my game a little.

Even though I know God is control of it all, that even if I go insane, He's still all powerful, sometimes it's hard to see that glorious picture for all the debris of the world. I'm working on being faithful and relying fully on the Creator. I tend to be a control freak, so sometimes, I get in the way of HIS will. I will work on that.

Anyway... enough of my blogging sob story. I will try very hard to better. I will have TWILIGHT Thursday tomorrow. I know it's important because who doesn't love, love, love hot vampires! I know I do!

I Remembered... It's Thursday!

I know I've been really bad about remembering what day of the week it is and not getting my TWILIGHT Thursday duties done. I'm sorry! I am still a TWILIGHT-a-holic and I am still counting done to NOVEMBER 20, which is the magical day! The day where we get to see Edward and Bella, again, share their love with us. AMAZING! is all that come to my mind.


While I am super-stoked about seeing Edward & Bella, I am really kind of excited to see all the new vampires. I think Dakota Fannin as Jane is one of the best casting moves ever. Please, please don't disappoint me! She better not mess this movie up!

Anyway... Happy Twilighting!

Twilight Thursaday!

November 20, 2009! NEW MOON!

Really Bad Blogger!

I know, I know! I have been a really bad blogger! I have let an entire two week s pass since I have even attempted to write anything! I've been so caught up in the fact that I'm a teacher now that I haven't really been into my electronic communication. I know that Twilight Thursdays are important. I have missed them. I feel like a lack-luster fan for not keeping it going. Please, please my semi-insane followers, forgive me for lacking the energy to blog on a more consistent basis. I will do better!

Chemistry...

Some girls in my class today were talking about whether or not Robert Pattinson & Kirsten Stewart were together. I don't know and I really don't care but for my TWILIGHT mental health, I hope they are. I think they have amazing chemistry and that if love were involved, they'd be great! Who knows except for the two of them I guess. I really don't know how you could look into those beautiful blue eyes of his and not fall in love. So cute! Not my type but still super cute!

Happy TWILIGHTing!

It's going...

So I have officially been a teacher for three weeks and a day. It's going well I think. I haven't killed anyone! And while I should be flat as a pancake from all the eye-rolling and I feel like I host Jeopardy with all the questions, I'm having a good time.

Going to work was a really hard decision for me. While I know I needed to help out a little so we can become debt free quicker, I still was apprehensive. I had peace and assurance that it was time. Now, I wouldn't want to be anywhere else!

The kids I teach are some of the biggest diamonds in the rough that I have ever seen. They've been told they're worthless and will never be anything and it's just not true. Some of them are really smart and kind. Some need me to show them they're smart and kind. I graciously accept the challenge. I love those kids so much already. I'm proud of them already. There's nothing but brighter day to come for any student who gets to be in my class.

No matter how much they resist, how much they protest, how much they think I'm too hard on them, my students are some of the luckiest students because GOD sent me there to Richland Middle School with each of them in mind. I don't take that assignment lightly and I'm going to do my very best not to let HIM or them down.

SORRY!!

Ok first let me apologize because today is Friday and I forgot yesterday was Thursday and didn't post my TWILIGHT Thursday post. SORRY!!

Secondly, let me apologize for the rip-off on the CW, Vampire Diaries. Uhh, stupid! Brooding, really hot, mind reading vampire falls for super-cute clumsy girl. The live in old town that the guy is "related" to the founders ( he was one of them because he's hundreds of years old). Umm...can we say cheap TWILIGHT rip-off! The guy on there is really cute but he's no EDWARD! People stop trying to redo greatness!

The original vampire hotty!
Although hot, it's an imitation!

Chemistry, heat, love, one!
They look like really good friends. I don't see the heat!